my man since your tests came back ok, you may need to seek behavioral therapy to help you deal with this anxiety. it really sounds like this is in your head, and these dr’s can help mellow you down. Its obviously not the AAS that messed you up, so less their someting your not telling us you have severe anxiety, and id bet it stems from your uneasiness with your younger cycles. Go talk with some psychologists and psydark_sideatrists, they have helped manage my PTSD anxiety to a point I am able to live normally. Thought id throw out my 2 cents. hope this helps
