Trenbolone : Avoiding the lunatic asylum if at all possible

As for Lexapro……… well my ex took her own life in April this year…….. and even though I’m doing all sorts to keep myself going (yoga, meditation, church, volunteering), I don’t know if I’d have gotten this far without the happy pills. I’m gonna come off them at the end of the year.

Originally Posted by renepjd

Very sorry to hear. Have you considered counselling?

I’ve had a counselor in the past before, but not since my ex died.

To be honest I think I’m doing alright, still getting up at 5:30am on weekdays to be in the gym for 6, still cooking my own dinners in pots on the stove, still playing guitar and singing. Fair enough I’m probably still in denial and still don’t quite believe that she’s gone and that she did it deliberately…. but hey I reckon I could be doing a lot worse. I mean if you’re still cooking your own food, that says a lot.

I was gonna go off and do ten days of silence (dhamma.org)….. I did it before when I was going through a really tough time, but I’ve been advised to just "get on with things" for the next six months as it slowly sinks in. I don’t think there’s any perfect way to deal with this situation… it’s almost like the mind and body are making a protest and you damn better let them (it helps for me to think about it like that).

See I was on 20mg daily (the max dose) when I learned that my ex died back in April. I was actually doing quite well about 2 months afterwards and I decided to taper off (2 weeks at 10mg, then 2 weeks at 5mg), but then I learned that her death certificate says Suicide so that knocked me down again and I decided to go back up to 20mg, and I reckon I’ll stay here til the end of the year.

I know what you’re talking about though phil margera… Next time I’m gonna do taper off more slowly, something like 15/15/10/10/10/5/5 instead of just 10/10/5/5 (if my doctor will let me). About four days after coming down to 10mg felt pretty bleak.

For $750 I can get the police report and autopsy report but I think I want to be a lot more grounded before I do that. Her family won’t talk to me… it was a pretty nasty break up. I called her sister last month and she hung up when I said my name. Nobody else has answered their phone or replied to emails. Still don’t know how she did it or who found her or even if she spent a few days in hospital.

Originally Posted by VALL

Test on its own makes me chubby, that’s the only reason I wanna stack it with something that cuts.

I get moon face.